warning: i will stick to my decision not to edit myself, so sorry for all my gramatical errors and utter ramblings.
good grief. its been 1 year, 5 months, and 23 days since i first blogged.
but at least im here writing in it again. my hope was fulfilled. hahaha
i still have the same problem tho. still unsure about what to do with my life (which has gone through some changes, i have an even better boyfriend now! <3). but at least im moving forward. at least i have taken the steps to figure things out. i just recently resigned from my first job, a good first job had i wanted to pursue the corporate world - which i clearly do not. i want more meaning. a reason to get up in the morning. and so ive decided for a career switch which started with this radical sabbatical.
my big move will be to try and study abroad next year to jumpstart my new career -i told my previous company that i needed to quit now so i can start applying. but before that, and more importantly, i have to figure out what career that will be. i took a risk resigning before i knew what i wanted to do. but this is why i called it a radical sabbatical.
but i am taking the small steps to figure out my path. ive narrowed down my choices to either computer science, sustainability management, and media management. i will be taking computer classes at UP ITDC (introduction to java programming) as recommended to me by the British Council. (I was so happy i decided to talk to an expert before i tried applying abroad. the BC guy said to be sure that you really want to take the course you want before applying, which duhhh makes sense. I had wanted to try and apply for Fall 2012, but that would have been unwise and a possible waste of money and life had i chosen the wrong path. this my need to take concrete baby steps first.) to see if i would really like sustainability i have talked to my mom to ask her friend to get me into the Environmental Center of Miriam College, which according to her act as an umbrella company for most environmental ngos. Media management im not entirely sure of. I would love to work for an entertainment company but I would be in the corporate setting again, the business side of it all, which is unappealing. I would have passion for sure for the products, but what the job entails, i feel would be the same corporate thing i dont want to get stuck in, but im applying there nevertheless because my gut tells me to.
But yes, at least i got the ball rolling. i do not regret any decision i have made so far. going into my first job taught me many things about the real world, but i also do not regret leaving that job. now i just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, allowing life to show me what it is it wants me to do. I believe things always work out in the end, you just have to allow yourself to see the path that has been laid out before you.
just like it says in one of my favorite quotes right now by Joseph Campbell (and repeated by the hot teacher from Pretty Little Liars):
"you must give up the life you's planned, in order to have the life that is waiting for you"
ive come to realize that i kept trying to figure things out on my own, what i want to do for myself, and so had no peace of mind. thus as i said in my only other post: too many swiveling thoughts. but you know what, God knows best, He has THE plan. So now i put my whole trust in Him. now i simply let go, and let God. because God always gives you the opportunities, its up to you to see them for what they are, grab them and see them through.
hope by the time i write my third entry, i will be at the start of my new journey.
